Yesterday did not go so great. A combination of disappointment over the weight gain, and more stress about the friend I mentioned before, led to me reaching for chocolate. Dinner also didn't go exactly according to plan due to a few missing ingredients and ended up being more calories than anticipated. According to my tracker I ended up on 2000 calories - hopefully not enough to put on weight, definitely too many to lose.
I'm also so annoyed that after I fell into emotional eating on Sunday, and I recognised it, and I knew I shouldn't do it, I did it again! And not just one incident - the first time yesterday after I'd calmed down a bit and recognised it wasn't helpful, and didn't make things better - I STILL did it again a few hours later! Honestly, what is wrong with me?!
Today was looking like it could have been more of the same since I was planning on taking my friend to a psychiatrist - he's not at all in a good state, mentally. But luckily he has been more forthcoming with his partner and she is going to go with him instead. She's very nice and understanding but he has been a bit afraid to reveal to her just how bad he was feeling, since it's the first episode of depression he's had since knowing her (I've known him many years and seen it all before). I'm glad he's told her though. It's very sad to see someone you care about in this kind of state, and it seems so unfair that some people can get through life (relatively) unafflicted, while others seem so prone to repeat bouts of depression and anxiety. I'm certainly in the latter category, fortunately under control at the moment, and it can just be so damn tiring. At least I know there's medication my friend can take which will hopefully see him get back to normal sooner rather than later - I can't imagine how terrible it must have been for sufferers of mental illness in days past.
It would have been good to have a night in today to try to get back on track, but that's just not the way it worked out. Tonight is steak frites night, and in keeping with my plan to carry on living a normal and sociable life I want to try to attend and enjoy myself, and eat my steak frites (there's nothing else on the menu) in a mindful, sensible fashion. So I'm trying to eating very lightly today. Wish me luck with staying on track.
I'm also so annoyed that after I fell into emotional eating on Sunday, and I recognised it, and I knew I shouldn't do it, I did it again! And not just one incident - the first time yesterday after I'd calmed down a bit and recognised it wasn't helpful, and didn't make things better - I STILL did it again a few hours later! Honestly, what is wrong with me?!
Today was looking like it could have been more of the same since I was planning on taking my friend to a psychiatrist - he's not at all in a good state, mentally. But luckily he has been more forthcoming with his partner and she is going to go with him instead. She's very nice and understanding but he has been a bit afraid to reveal to her just how bad he was feeling, since it's the first episode of depression he's had since knowing her (I've known him many years and seen it all before). I'm glad he's told her though. It's very sad to see someone you care about in this kind of state, and it seems so unfair that some people can get through life (relatively) unafflicted, while others seem so prone to repeat bouts of depression and anxiety. I'm certainly in the latter category, fortunately under control at the moment, and it can just be so damn tiring. At least I know there's medication my friend can take which will hopefully see him get back to normal sooner rather than later - I can't imagine how terrible it must have been for sufferers of mental illness in days past.
It would have been good to have a night in today to try to get back on track, but that's just not the way it worked out. Tonight is steak frites night, and in keeping with my plan to carry on living a normal and sociable life I want to try to attend and enjoy myself, and eat my steak frites (there's nothing else on the menu) in a mindful, sensible fashion. So I'm trying to eating very lightly today. Wish me luck with staying on track.
There are lots of positives and trackingconsistently through good and bad days coubts as a posutive for me. Keep it up.
ReplyDeleteI hope your friends finds the help he needs. He's lucky to have a good pal and an understanding partner.
You'll get there!!
Lesley xx