Sunday so far has gone to plan, and the good news from today is that my dog, who has been recovering from major surgery, has been given the green light to start walks again. Good news for the pup, and also for me since it forces me back into daily exercise. Where I live it is pretty unpleasantly hot and humid so I hate exercising outside around 8 months of the year, but it's not like I ever exercised inside either. I hate gyms (although I did have a successful run with one a few years ago) and I always feel so uncomfortably out of place among the skinny gym bunnies. This is compounded by the fact that I live in a big Asian city where everyone is super super skinny and fashion conscious. I feel so out of place sometimes that I'm even reluctant to say exactly where I am, even in this anonymous unread blog, because I feel like as That Fat White Girl I am easily identifiable (not actually true, rationally speaking).
The plan for tomorrow is-
Breakfast - leftover cooked potato omelette with a bit of goats cheese and spring onions
Lunch- tomato soup and toast
Dinner - Yotam Ottolenghi's conchiglie with yogurt, chilli, and peas, from the Jerusalem cookbook. (With significantly less olive oil, and low fat yogurt and feta)
While tallying up the calorie total for said day, I was exchanging messages with my good friend who is an aid worker, currently in a war torn country in Africa. It made me feel unbelievably ashamed that the biggest concern in my life is eating too much. Even more true at the moment because I am currently unemployed (I used to work at an NGO with this friend of mine and we recently both lost our jobs due to budget cuts; she went on to an amazing new do-gooding job immediately, I went on to sitting at home and mainlining ice cream like it was going out of style.
Anyway, I must remember that one if the items on my "what works" list is not falling into self-loathing, so I have to shut those thoughts down. The Husband is currently off on a 2 hour jog, and I am going to follow his example (scaled down) and do some strength exercises.
The plan for tomorrow is-
Breakfast - leftover cooked potato omelette with a bit of goats cheese and spring onions
Lunch- tomato soup and toast
Dinner - Yotam Ottolenghi's conchiglie with yogurt, chilli, and peas, from the Jerusalem cookbook. (With significantly less olive oil, and low fat yogurt and feta)
While tallying up the calorie total for said day, I was exchanging messages with my good friend who is an aid worker, currently in a war torn country in Africa. It made me feel unbelievably ashamed that the biggest concern in my life is eating too much. Even more true at the moment because I am currently unemployed (I used to work at an NGO with this friend of mine and we recently both lost our jobs due to budget cuts; she went on to an amazing new do-gooding job immediately, I went on to sitting at home and mainlining ice cream like it was going out of style.
Anyway, I must remember that one if the items on my "what works" list is not falling into self-loathing, so I have to shut those thoughts down. The Husband is currently off on a 2 hour jog, and I am going to follow his example (scaled down) and do some strength exercises.
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