Weigh-in : 91.8 (May as well include the numbers, right?
Difference : -0.9kg
That's not a bad effort really, for having a weekend away, even given the fact that this weigh-in was 9 days, not 7, after the previous one. I'm definitely pleased with it but still feel a bit of nonspecific disappointment/anxiety or something. Maybe because it's really hitting home how long it will take me to lose this weight (even though I know I shouldn't let that bother me).
For some reason I found it really difficult to not spend all day yesterday eating. I ended up a fair way above my calorie target, although I think still fewer than calories than I supposedly need to maintain my current weight, but even that was a bit of a struggle. What do you do when you can't shake that urge? Usual advice seems to be just wait ten minutes or so and usually the urge will be gone, but that's not my experience at all. Luckily I still have some of that first blush dieting enthusiasm which prevented me falling headlong into disaster, but I know my motivation/willpower will desert me at some point. I just tried to distract myself, partly by going online and ordering cookbooks (that's totally normal dieting behaviour, right?) but it clearly didn't always work. Times like this I especially wish I had a job again - unemployment gives you too much time to yourself. And gives you time to fret about things, and to me, anxiety = comfort eating.
Speaking of - I actually have a job interview this week. It would be a real coup to be offered it, it's a huge step up career wise, and I'd be silly not to take it if I got it - but it's in another country. For financial reasons The Husband couldn't come with me, and so we'd have to be long distance for 18 months (term of the contract) and constantly fly back and forth. It's also quite a difficult job in a difficult city. I should just not think about it yet since chances are slim I'll be successful, but it is weighing heavily on my mind.
Difference : -0.9kg
That's not a bad effort really, for having a weekend away, even given the fact that this weigh-in was 9 days, not 7, after the previous one. I'm definitely pleased with it but still feel a bit of nonspecific disappointment/anxiety or something. Maybe because it's really hitting home how long it will take me to lose this weight (even though I know I shouldn't let that bother me).
For some reason I found it really difficult to not spend all day yesterday eating. I ended up a fair way above my calorie target, although I think still fewer than calories than I supposedly need to maintain my current weight, but even that was a bit of a struggle. What do you do when you can't shake that urge? Usual advice seems to be just wait ten minutes or so and usually the urge will be gone, but that's not my experience at all. Luckily I still have some of that first blush dieting enthusiasm which prevented me falling headlong into disaster, but I know my motivation/willpower will desert me at some point. I just tried to distract myself, partly by going online and ordering cookbooks (that's totally normal dieting behaviour, right?) but it clearly didn't always work. Times like this I especially wish I had a job again - unemployment gives you too much time to yourself. And gives you time to fret about things, and to me, anxiety = comfort eating.
Speaking of - I actually have a job interview this week. It would be a real coup to be offered it, it's a huge step up career wise, and I'd be silly not to take it if I got it - but it's in another country. For financial reasons The Husband couldn't come with me, and so we'd have to be long distance for 18 months (term of the contract) and constantly fly back and forth. It's also quite a difficult job in a difficult city. I should just not think about it yet since chances are slim I'll be successful, but it is weighing heavily on my mind.
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