My day 1 fast day has thus far been a success. Due in not too small a part, I think, to my obsessive worrying about my health which kept me occupied all day. I'm terrified I've diabetes. I've read about the symptoms and considered them so long I don't know if I actually have any. Probably not? But maybe? They're fairly vague, a lot of them. The thought fills me with dread. Anyway, the worrying is clearly sticking around, so I've made an appointment to go and see a doctor tomorrow. I dread getting the expected lecture/advice related to my weight but I suppose it's to be expected. I know the blood test requires fasting, so I plan to skip breakfast in the hopes they can do it straight away.
It's now almost dinner time. I had plans for little tasks and things I could occupy my day with today when I got hungry but I haven't done any of them. Just say here reading and fretting. Oh well, I guess it worked, at least.
I've just seen on the news a story about how obesity is linked to 10 kinds of cancer, and that's riling me up too. I don't understand why, it's not as though any of this is news to me, and I'm not the worrying type (about my health, that is). But I have this panicky feeling that I'm stuck in this scary dangerous spot and it's going to take me forever to extricate myself.
It's now almost dinner time. I had plans for little tasks and things I could occupy my day with today when I got hungry but I haven't done any of them. Just say here reading and fretting. Oh well, I guess it worked, at least.
I've just seen on the news a story about how obesity is linked to 10 kinds of cancer, and that's riling me up too. I don't understand why, it's not as though any of this is news to me, and I'm not the worrying type (about my health, that is). But I have this panicky feeling that I'm stuck in this scary dangerous spot and it's going to take me forever to extricate myself.
You have my sympathy - I get myself into very similar states. The big giveaway for diabetes is often extreme thirst - my Dad was diagnosed with it years ago and that was the thing that made him go along to the docs in the first place.
ReplyDeleteHopefully everything will be fine and you're doing something about the weight - it's not an insurmountable problem.
Will be interested to hear how you fare with 5:2 - I do NOT deal well with low blood sugar so have avoided it like the plague although my husband dabbled and lost about half a stone in a couple of weeks.
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