Plodding on

Sadly, after a week of brilliant dieting, I plummeted into a calorie and self loathing free fall, the cause of which is still quite mysterious to me. The less said about it the better, but I do think it's probably not unrelated to my mood generally, so I'm going to have to do something about that.

We had a weekend away with friends this week which I wish I could have just enjoyed but was, frankly, ruined by the intense feelings of self consciousness that dogged me. It doesn't help that my friends are all SO thin. Short shorts and minidresses and backless tops galore, and I felt downright repellent in my enormous jeans and baggy tops. Seeing myself in photos with them is torturous.

Anyway, I managed to get back on track today with a fast day. Raw zucchini, beetroot, spinach and feta salad for lunch; seared salmon with miso vegetables for dinner. 

On Saturday week we're going out to lunch for a friend's birthday; I'm hoping that by then I'll at least feel as though I've made a dent in things. My larger goal is to get down 8 or so kilos by the time we go away at the beginning of July for a friend's wedding. It won't come close to bringing me to an acceptable weight but surely a bit of difference might stop me feeling as horrendous as I did this last weekend.