Planning panic

One of the things I hate about dieting is the way it makes me so inflexible. I have to plan my weeks so carefully, taking into account any social activities, and although I am determined not to let it negatively impact my social life, the fact is, having no plans makes it much easier to stay on plan, as it were.

This week I was planning to do my fast days on Monday and Thursday as usual but a friend is unexpectedly in town Thursday so we're going out to lunch. I can't fast Friday as I have other lunch plans, plus another birthday lunch on Saturday AND Sunday. All of this is enough to send me into a tailspin. So I'll have to fast tomorrow, but it means my planned meals are out the window and I usually like to have my fast days organised with military like precision well in advance. 

Anyway, it isn't a big deal - or rather, it shouldn't be a big deal, but it is. Four social occasions in a row and an unscheduled fast day are making me quite anxious. And I hate that the normal vicissitudes and indeed pleasures of life have become so anxiety ridden for me. More so than before, as now I have to deal with fat girl wardrobe freak out AND trying to diet while dining out freak out.

Oh well. I guess it's good news that I'm keeping on trucking.