Upswing

I'm a little reluctant to write about it since it seems such a fragile, delicate thing, but it seems like (touch wood, hushed voice) my motivation has returned. Magically, like that mysterious switch has been flicked on. I don't know if it was Lesley's pep talk or some freak of my psyche, but yesterday I did a fast day and managed quite well - I was definitely hungry and I did want to eat but it wasn't like that feeling where it's a permanent battle, requiring every single ounce of your mental energy, not to dive into buttered toast or cake etc. And I even had cake in the house! Granted, I'd eaten about 10 pieces in the previous two days, but I did freeze the remaining couple of pieces and they remained undisturbed in the freezer yesterday. I wasn't even tempted! 

Even more gratifyingly, I seem to be managing to count calories and stick to plan today, and I'm busy planning out meals for the week. This will be somewhat difficult as we have a lot on -a good friend who no longer lives here has come back for her wedding, so there are two dinners this week plus the wedding itself on Saturday. I'm hoping to just maintain some perspective. The meals out won't be on plan but I must remember that they won't ruin the diet; I must also not look at them as a chance to have a calorie free for all.

Anyway, plan for today was porridge with apple and pecan for breakfast (not particularly enjoyable to be honey - I decide to eat porridge maybe once every 5 months, and every time I do I remember why I don't eat porridge); smoked salmon and multigrain toast for lunch, and for dinner, steak with a raw zucchini, rocket, feta, and mint salad.