Weekly check-in

Last Sunday I carefully planned out my meals and fast days for the week, and felt pretty smug about it, until about 4pm on Monday (my first fast day) I cracked for some unknown reason and basically stuffed my face. Due to lack of calories previously that day ended up at a reasonable calorie total but every day thereafter, no matter how well I started, ended in disaster. Looks like my motivation has disappeared whence it came, with no rhyme or reason. And it's so frustrating because every night I'm angry with myself and upset, every morning, I'm resolved, and it just dissipates entirely. I can't even blame PMS.

I weighed myself this morning (which I guess is worth considering a victory in itself) and I put on 2 pounds. I'll now have to lose 11 pounds in 3 weeks to meet my very modest, un-ambitious weight loss goal for the US trip. Sigh.

Today unfortunately I have both lunch and dinner plans. Tomorrow I'll have to begin again. Again. 

Weekly update

My weigh-in this morning indicates I'm down a measly 0.8 pounds! I'm quite disappointed by this, even though I know weight loss isn't linear. I was hoping my blow-out of a day last Sunday wasn't too detrimental, especially as I'd been really good the rest of the week, but alas, it was not to be. I need to start being more careful about what I eat on meals out. To be honest, I'd probably be more ok with this if it weren't for the looming holiday. Then after that it will be the trip home to see family at Christmas... I know the pressure is self imposed but these artificial deadlines do make me more anxious to lose weight faster. I'm hoping next week to get a solid 2 pound loss at least.

I'm going out to dinner tonight but hopefully it won't be too damaging. We were going to do Japanese food which is pretty good diet-wise (although not really low-carb wise) but my friend has hurt her ankle so it might end up being takeaway at her house instead. H is away for the weekend which historically has (a) made it much easier to stay on plan or (b) led to horrific binges, depending on my mood. Hopefully the former, this time. Next week I have a lunch out but no other social engagements. I'm hoping to do 2 fast days (strictly, this time, since I've gone a couple of hundred calories over in my last attempts). 

As for the diet plan, if anyone's interested, I've decided on moderately low carb - I'm not restricting any fruits or vegetables or legumes, while steering clear of bread/rice/pasta/potatoes for the most part but not worrying too much when I'm eating out. I might introduce the occasional low GI carb (farro, polenta, etc) sometimes too. I'm also making sure my meals have a good amount of fat, as I've become convinced that it's necessary for satiety and fending off that horrible diet deprivation feeling. Seems to be working well enough so far.