I've been doing pretty well this week. Our holiday for the wedding had some nice parts but was predictably, horrifically, anxiety inducing when it came to dressing up, being photographed, and generally just being out in the world as a fat person every day. I don't think I realised how much I hate just being in public. I mainly work from home and so can usually avoid being out much, apart from forays to quiet streets to walk the dog. I hate being out and having to deal with choosing an outfit and feeling self conscious, because feeling self conscious is basically my default mode.
Anyway, luckily I managed not to backslide despite not staying remotely on plan on holidays. I've done well this week, and I've lost 10 pounds in the last 5 weeks. I know objectively this is a good result, but the fact is, it's also not noticeable at all. My clothes are still tight, nothing looks good. I know I just have to keep the faith, but I would love to have a bit of a boost right now. I guess with the amount of weight I have to lose - 50 more pounds to get back to a healthy weight category - it's going to take a lot before I see a change.
Anyway, luckily I managed not to backslide despite not staying remotely on plan on holidays. I've done well this week, and I've lost 10 pounds in the last 5 weeks. I know objectively this is a good result, but the fact is, it's also not noticeable at all. My clothes are still tight, nothing looks good. I know I just have to keep the faith, but I would love to have a bit of a boost right now. I guess with the amount of weight I have to lose - 50 more pounds to get back to a healthy weight category - it's going to take a lot before I see a change.
Well done - 10lbs in 5 weeks is absolutely amazing. Another pound or two and I bet you'll start feeling the difference. x
ReplyDeleteKeep it up hon. It'll come. Lxx
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